Friday, March 25, 2011

Well Padded

File this under things nobody tells you...
Amazingly, Wednesday marked the one month birthday of our amazing little boy! One month already. And here I thought my pregnancy went fast. Sometimes I get choked up with how much I love our son. I get a lump in my throat staring at him in his bassinet and my stomach gets butterflies when I think about how grateful I am that he is here. I reflect on our infertility and realize that if we had gotten pregnant 6 years ago or 1 year ago or one cycle ago or one second sooner it wouldn't be him. Him. The little boy who sleeps with his arms above his head like he just got caught with his hands in the cookie jar. The little boy who wakes up with the sweetest little cat stretches and gigantic noises that seem to come from deep in his throat. The little boy who smiled at me a few days ago. A huge smile, all gums, that lasted a split second and now I will do anything to get him to do it again. I now can't imagine life without him, his goofy noises or his uncanny ability to need another diaper change 3 minutes after I just changed it.

People told me how much I would love him (true), how I would fall in love with my husband all over again watching him with the baby (totally true) and how I wouldn't be able to picture time without him (completely true).

What they didn't tell me about were all the pads.

Seriously, between the overnight maxi pads I've been wearing for 4 weeks and the breast pads (just finished my first box of disposables), I feel like I am constantly leaking from somewhere.

Wouldn't trade it for the world.


  1. Hi there....Love the birth story:) Made me think of ours and made my heart melt all over again...Isnt being a mom the best! I just love it and all the pain/sadness/struggle was def all 100% worth it and Im sure you would agree

  2. Thanks for the heads up - I go in Sunday for an induction and I'd been wondering what pads to use. I was thinking Depends or Poise - overnights didn't occur to me!

    also - a month already? Holy Moses time DOES fly!

  3. Knowing that there is a perfect baby waiting for me makes me know the wait will all be worth it. I have a friend who got pregnant on her 4th IVF and said she knew it when she saw her little boy that he was the one she had been waiting for. Sounds like your little guy is adorable and perfect!

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  5. What kind of side effects did you have on Clomid?

  6. oh i love what you said about had you been pregnant six years ago, it would not have been the son you have today. i was moved to tears. IF was a hard journey but it led me right to the two ladies who are kicking inside me today, right to them. Thank you for that perspective.

    And thank you for having a sense of humor while going through all the pads! this post made me laugh and cry!

  7. New reader here! (From ICLW)Your story is an amazing one, and just wanted to say congrats! And thanks for passing along the maxi pad tips ;) LOL

  8. Happy ICLW and congrats on your little boy! I often wonder why I wasted so much time before starting IF treatments, but then, when I look at my (now almost 2 year old) son, I realize - just like you wrote - that he wouldn't be there if I had gotten pregnant any sooner, and then everything is OK.
    Oh, and I love your birth story - it brought back many memories.

  9. Congratulations on your little one! I feel the same way about my Bean. While infertility and the miscarriage we had was the hardest thing I've ever been through, if it hadn't all happened, we wouldn't have her. I can't imagine that or life being any different. Time does go by fast though. She's almost a year old and I'm so not ready for it. Enjoy every precious moment!

    ICLW #117

  10. Aw, such a beautiful post! (aside from the pads that no one tells you about... ha... Thanks for mentioning it, though. Now I know what to look forward to ;)

    On another note, I really look forward to falling in love with a tiny human being that my husband and I create. Just thinking about how awesome of a father he would be, brings me to tears. When it finally happens, I know I'll be so emotional and I will treasure every.single.moment.

    Congratulations on your little miracle! Happy 1 month to him :)

    Happy ICLW!
    Carmela #65

  11. awww...very cool post. stopping by from iclw.

  12. What a wonderful post. Stopping by from ICLW.

  13. Here from ICLW (#54) and I really am glad to have found your blog.

    This was such a great post -- funny and sweet and real. I love it.

    As I'm a spotter (before and after AF), I'm definitely helping you keep Always in business. But once my sweet little bundle gets here, I know I'll feel just like you do.