Its funny how a situation that caused me so much stress and anxiety over the span of 7 months can just be done. With a 30 second phone call. Done. I've been so lame on the details here, but basically I was finally put in touch with the only person who could make a difference and she did. With a few clicks, my anxiety was put to rest, all my notes and letters suddenly had no place to go. I know there will always be a next thing, but for now I can put that panic to rest.
Onto the next thing. Shockingly, I am wondering if the few things I have been feeling lately are......pregnancy symptoms. Here we go again. The feelings and emotions are the same. It would be an amazing relief to keep $4,000 in our bank account and not need medication for a frozen cycle that might not work. But, if I did get pregnant naturally my heart aches for our frozen embies that have been waiting for us if we needed them. We KNOW all this.
But, here I am. The heartburn I've been feeling for a few days could be because I've been putting hot sauce on my eggs in the morning. The tiredness could be because I am chasing a toddler every day. The sweating could be because it has been 102 degrees for a week and a half.
But, my DH said I felt like a furnace the other night when we were cuddling. My mom said I looked "different" the other day. My last period (three weeks ago) was early and very short. Just vague enough to make me hopeful.
Oh so hopeful.