Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Here We Go Again

Its funny how a situation that caused me so much stress and anxiety over the span of 7 months can just be done.  With a 30 second phone call.  Done.  I've been so lame on the details here, but basically I was finally put in touch with the only person who could make a difference and she did.  With a few clicks, my anxiety was put to rest, all my notes and letters suddenly had no place to go.  I know there will always be a next thing, but for now I can put that panic to rest.

Onto the next thing.  Shockingly, I am wondering if the few things I have been feeling lately are......pregnancy symptoms.  Here we go again.  The feelings and emotions are the same.  It would be an amazing relief to keep $4,000 in our bank account and not need medication for a frozen cycle that might not work.  But, if I did get pregnant naturally my heart aches for our frozen embies that have been waiting for us if we needed them.  We KNOW all this.

But, here I am.  The heartburn I've been feeling for a few days could be because I've been putting hot sauce on my eggs in the morning.  The tiredness could be because I am chasing a toddler every day.  The sweating could be because it has been 102 degrees for a week and a half.

But, my DH said I felt like a furnace the other night when we were cuddling.  My mom said I looked "different" the other day.  My last period (three weeks ago) was early and very short.  Just vague enough to make me hopeful.

Oh so hopeful.


  1. praying for good news from you!

  2. Here from LFCA. Keeping my fingers crossed for you! :)

  3. Here from LFCA. Sounds exciting! Keeping my fingers crossed!

  4. I'm here from ICLW :) Fingers crossed for you!

  5. I'm also here from ICLW (though I was too late to get my name on the list! oops!) Good luck! Sending you a prayer!

  6. Here from ICLW! Fingers crossed! It would be great to hold on to that money!

    ICLW #27

  7. Stick hold of your hope.
    Lots of luck!


  8. Crossing my fingers.

    An ICLW Visit from #63
    liddy @ the unfair struggle (mfi, speedskating, 1st 2ww)

  9. Fingers crossed and hopeful.

    ICLW #33

  10. Hello from ICLW! Fingers crossed for you!