Saturday, April 10, 2010

Tilling the Soil of My Uterus


I met Carolyn today. She came into the store where I work and ended up being one of those women who makes you just start spilling your guts. I don't really remember how it started, but all of a sudden I found myself telling her (the edited version) of our IF story.

I guess it started when she asked me if I was a mom. All I could muster was a small shake of my head. Anything more would have started the roller coaster of emotion that I have been avoiding all week.

She told me that I will make a wonderful mom some day (I helped her with a small thing and she said she was really appreciative of my patience) and I started talking about how I just found out this week that our first IVF didn't work. She asked intelligent questions and made a point that stuck with me.

She said she was a gardener. She showed me pictures of her garden. She then looked at me with all seriousness and said she felt confident that one of our cycles would work. She believed that this cycle tilled the soil of my uterus and that new life would be started in there.

As goofy as it sounds, it works for me. I told my hubby and it rang true with him too. We have plans to do some landscaping outside this weekend. Tilling the soil inside and out.


28 comments:

  1. It's not goofy at all. Spring is the time for new life and hope! I know that it'll be our turn soon. Keep up the positive thoughts!

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  2. That is absolutely beautiful! I really hope that things will work out soon for you. Sometimes we need to run into wonderful strangers who can give us glimmers of hope.

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  3. It's not goofy. It's turning a negative into a positive. It's hard to stay positive sometimes so it's nice to have a little reminder. enjoy your landscaping!

    ICLW

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  4. That is beautiful and so lovely of the lady to feel that way.

    have a good one with the landscaping :)

    *iclw

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  5. What a difficult journey this can be for all who suffer IF. I know that many of my patients just cannot understand why they fail their first attempt, but what I tell them is that they have NOT failed...what you are doing is keeping your eyes on the goal and that the goal may take a little longer to acheive, that's all. Take care! *iclw

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  6. Her comment sounds absolutely lovely!

    ICLW
    http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/

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  7. Beautiful and hopeful. Through our struggles: hope, possibilities, strength.
    Stay strong.
    ~Miriam (ICLW #25)
    http://hannahweptsarahlaughed.blogspot.com

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  8. What a lovely analogy! It's so nice when people get it...

    ICLW

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  9. Love it. An insightful little piece of wisdom. Brilliant. Hope you tilled last weekend and continue to. Happy iclw.

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  10. Love the gardening analogy. Hang in there. Great blog, can't wait to read more. I'm your newest follower from IComLeavWe.

    -K
    http://mypottyseat.blogspot.com/

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  11. Wow - that is a great analogy! I think I'll keep that one too - maybe my C/P tilled the soil and now something will be able to grow in there. And thrive!

    Best of luck to you!

    ICLW #119

    http://lovelyladybump.blogspot.com/

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  12. It's not goofy at all. That was kind of her to offer those words of encouragement to you and to offer you hope.

    ICLW

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  13. That is such a beautiful sentiment! I love the analogy. I wish you the best!

    Happy ICLW! (#48)

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  14. Hello from ICLW. I'm so sorry your IVF didn't work. And I really like this analogy. Thinking of you!

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  15. What a beautiful thing to say. Wishing you good luck!!

    Happy ICLW

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  16. Here from ICLW. I think that might be one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard. We all need a Carolyn. Hang tough lady.

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  17. Great analogy and a well written post. ICLW

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  18. It's not at all goofy. What a refreshing change to have someone who asked intelligent questions and lifted you up. Thank goodness for her today...for saying exactly what you needed to hear.

    Wishing you all the best in recovery and as you move forward.

    iclw

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  19. I can totally relate to just spilling your guts to someone who feels safe. Clearly you made a good choice. I love the thought of tilling your uterus!
    I do hope spring/summer brings you the new life you deserve.
    -ICLW

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  20. That is such a sweet thought. I hope that she is right and you are able to find peace and success as you move forward.

    ICLW

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  21. What a beautiful thing for her to have said to you. I wish you the best of luck with your next cycle.

    -ICLW

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  22. So well said! What a beautiful thought! Good luck in the future! I just added your link on my blog and I would love for you to check it out! Happy ICLW! (Stress Free Infertility #90)

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  23. That is absolutely beautiful, I hope everything works out well.

    ~Stopping by for ICLW #126

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  24. That is a great way of looking at your cycles! I hope you bloom at the end of your next cycle!

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  25. What a beautiful way to think of it :)

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  26. here from CDLC but now I've been reading your whole blog. I start stims for my 2nd IVF on Friday, and I teared up at the comparison. Thank you :)

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